No Excuses

Silence. I love it. It does not come very often in this crazy house. My husband is across the street at softball practice and I sent all three girls across the street with him. It is finally nice enough outside to have the screen door open so I can sit here and just listen to nature.

I have a house that is trying to call my name to straighten it up, but I am not listening. When I can take a moment and sit and write, I have to take it. Lately it seems that I don't have any quiet time in the mornings or in the evenings and definitely not in the middle of the day.

This morning I went down by the river with my husband and we spent some time together. However, we didn't talk to each other. We shared in each other's quiet time. We both spent time alone with God, while in each other's presence. It is something that we have started to do on Sunday mornings before we go to church. It is a time that I treasure every week. 

This morning I spent some time in Philippians 4. Verse 4 says this, "Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice!" I started to think about my last blog post, In a funk. I started to be rather convicted. I really don't have the right to let myself get to that place.

This verse is pretty clear. It does not say, Rejoice when something good happens, or rejoice when I feel like it. It clearly states, "Rejoice in the Lord always." 

I am reading a book right now by Francis Chan, titled Crazy Love. There is a statement that keeps speaking to my heart. He states, "We need to stop giving people excuses not to believe in God."

I have really been tossing this statement around in my head. I have really been thinking to myself, "Am I living my life in a way that I am giving others excuses to not want to believe in God?"

I believe in a God that loves all people, but do I love all people. I believe in a God that forgives all sin, but do I forgive others. I believe in a God who guides every step of my life, but do I let Him, or do I try to forge my own path? I believe in a God that is fair and just, but do I try to be the judge?

I don't want to give people excuses to not believe in God. The God of the universe that created all things. The God that shows me how much he loves me everyday. All I have to do is look around me and see how much He loves me. I look at my three beautiful girls. I look at the gift of my marriage. I look at the leaves that are starting to bloom. God's love for me is everywhere.

I will leave you with one more statement that I read in Crazy Love. It is another statement that has me on my knees, asking God to forgive me and asking God to help me, to change my heart. Chan says, "The irony is that while God doesn't need us but still wants us, we desperately need God but don't really want Him most of the time. He treasures us and anticipates our departure from this earth to be with Him--and we wonder, indifferently, how much we have to do for Him to get by."

I don't want to be a follower of Christ that lives my life just getting by for Christ. I want to live my life with no excuses.

"Boldly and without hindrance he, [Paul], preached the kingdom of God and taught about the Lord Jesus Christ." Acts 28:31

In a funk

"Above all, love each other deeply, because love covers over a multitude of sin." 1 Peter 4:8

I am in a funk. My poor family has had to deal with it. . . I haven't been very pleasant the last couple of weeks. I am lucky that love covers a multitude of sins and I am really lucky that I have people in my life that love me deeply. Because this morning I think everyone wanted me to go back to bed and start the day over.

I told my husband at breakfast, "I don't know what is wrong with me, I am just really angry." He didn't argue with me, he knows that I am in a funk. After I realized that I was not having a very good start for the day, I took a deep breath and started over. Unfortunately for the majority of my family they were already off to school and work for the day so they didn't see my change in mood.

My youngest wanted me to color with her so I decided to grab my Prayer Journal and color. I grabbed my scripture cards that I am trying to memorize and I started to draw the scripture images and color them in. Interestingly enough, the first scripture I prayed was Psalm 56:7, "You keep track of all my sorrows. You have collected all my tears in your bottle. You have recorded each one in your book."

As I colored my anger started to melt. As I started to pray these scriptures and focus on what they really said, I felt a little bit of peace. After I finished my quiet time I decided that it was time to quit putting off working out. I finally convinced my little one that she could miss one cartoon while I got in a little exercise. It felt so good to sweat a little bit.

The anger I felt when I woke up had completely disappeared. I know what I need to get myself out of the funk. Unfortunately sometimes I let myself feel sorry for myself instead of just taking the time to pray through it.

A scripture that I need to attach to my bathroom mirror is 1 Thessalonians 5:16-18, "Be joyful always; pray continually: give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus."

I guess I don't have any excuses to act the way I did when I got out of bed this morning. I am very blessed that my family loves me deeply.

So how did I do?

Okay so today is a week from when I decided to focus on the first section of 1 Peter 4:7-11. "Therefore be clear minded and self-controlled so that you can pray." Some of you may be wondering how I did.

Well, I won't say that I have mastered this section of the verse, however, it is definitely on my mind at all times and I am working diligently at focusing my thoughts so that I can spend some serious time in prayer.

Now it is time to move on to the next portion of the verse. "Above all, love each other deeply, because love covers over a multitude of sins." 1 Peter 4:8

I recently watched the final week DVD for Focus on the Family's Truth Project. God's timing is always perfect. . .because I am highly convicted right now on a topic that deals very closely with loving each other deeply, as the above scripture states.

The DVD focused on loving the unlovable. Well, in God's eyes, no one in unlovable. So. . . in our eyes, no one should be unlovable.

Take some time to think about the following question: "Whom do you consider unlovable?" I think all of us have people in our lives that we don't think we could ever love. Because to be honest when we think about them, we don't even really like them.

However, God expects us to love them. I have to remind myself that to someone else out there, they may consider me unlovable at times. 

God presents each of us with opportunities all of time. Sometimes it is as simple as saying hello when you pass by someone in the store. Sometimes it takes more from us like helping someone that we know is in need.

In our culture today, we like to think that someone else will take care of some one's needs. That we are too busy. I know that I often think this myself. How different the world would be if we started to care more about our neighbors than ourselves.

So my challenge for this next week is to really keep my eyes open for the opportunities that God presents to me. I may be only one person, living in what some think is the middle of nowhere. But as one person, in my little corner of the world, I can make a difference.

I need to remind myself that God takes each one of us just as we are. As 1 Peter 4:7 states, "Above all, love each other deeply, because love covers over a multitude of sins." 1 Peter 4:8

I Witness

The pastor at my church has been preaching on witnessing the past few weeks. I have really enjoyed studying the scripture and the Bible stories that he has brought into his message. Along with gaining some wisdom on the subject, I have been a little convicted.

At Easter, my mother-in-law told me that she thought I had the gift to witness. Unfortunately, I think it is really easy for me to talk to her family about my relationship with Christ because they are Christians. However, out in the world, it is not as easy.

Since I am a stay-at-home mom, I don't have coworkers to witness to, but yesterday I realized that I should not just think about witnessing to my friends and family. I have another audience that I can have a big impact on.

After school yesterday, I had a houseful. I babysat for a girlfriend's boys and then after school my girls each had a friend over, plus the neighbor's granddaughter was over to play. At one time I had eleven kids in my house. I had all of them, but the baby, sitting around the table eating fresh from the oven chocolate chip cookies and kool-aid. As I had them running in and out of the house, and in and out of the house, I could have responded in one of two ways. With frustration, or with love.

I chose love. They were having so much fun chasing the baby bunnies in our backyard, trying to catch them & thinking I didn't realize what they were doing. Just like I want my friends to feel like my door is always open, I also want my kids' friends to feel that way, as well.

One day the girls had a friend over. We sat down to eat supper and Chad prayed for our food. In his prayer, he thanked God for the friendship with this friend. After he finished his prayer she said, "Did you just make that prayer up?" He said, "Yes". She said, "I thought so because you said my name and I didn't think their was a prayer like that." It gave my husband the opportunity to tell her about prayer and how we can pray about anything and everything. He had an open door to witness, and he took it.

I know with summer right around the corner, my house will soon be full of kids. I need to remember that I have a golden opportunity to be an example for these kids. To make them feel loved every time they walk through the doors of our home. And to teach them that Jesus is real and He loves them even more than I do.

But you will receive power when the Holy Spirit comes on you; and you will be my witnesses in Jerusalem, and in all Judea and Samaria, and to the ends of the earth." Acts 1:8

My focus for this crazy Wednesday

". . . Therefore be clear minded and self-controlled so that you can pray. Above all, love each other deeply, because love covers a multitude of sins. Offer hospitality to one another without grumbling. Each one should use whatever gift he has received to serve others, faithfully administering God's grace in its various forms. If anyone speaks, he should do it as one speaking the very words of God. If anyone serves, he should do it with the strength God provides, so that in all things God may be praised through Jesus Christ. To him be the glory and the power for ever and ever. Amen." 1 Peter 4:7-11

I read this scripture yesterday morning. Obviously I did not take enough time to really read it and let it soak in. I often read scriptures that really speak to my soul, but I do not take the time to apply them to my life. If I could master this scripture alone, my life would be so different.

This scripture is full of powerful wisdom, so I am not going to try to fit it all into one blog post. As I take the time to break it down for my life, I am going to share my observations with you.

". . . therefore be clear minded and self-controlled so that you can pray."

Have you ever tried to pray when you don't have a clear mind? I just tried to do this at 6:30 this morning. It didn't work. I was thinking about the day I had yesterday, the day ahead today and a million other things. I couldn't even finish a sentence before my mind was wandering. Then about 5 minutes into my quiet time, my youngest woke up and was ready to start the day.

There is definitely a reason we need to be clear minded when we go to the Lord in prayer. I wish that I was able to just sit and pour my heart out to God, but I get easily distracted, no matter what time of day it is. I often will journal my prayers, it keeps me focused and I have a much more personal time with God.

Then, there is self-control. If I had to list anything that I struggled with, self-control would be on the top of my list. I hope that it is the season of life that I am currently in. I have been a stay-at-home mom for almost three years, but I still struggle some days with being home 24/7. I was used to having to fulfill the demands of my job all day long and be a mom at night. It is quite different to fulfill the demands of a three, six and eight year old.

So as I start another day, I am going to be focused on these two things. Being clear minded and self-controlled and hopefully later today I can even get some quiet time to pray. For now, I need to go outside with my little one to see the bunnies and birds in our backyard. She is begging me to "can we please go outside and watch the big fat bunny." It is only 9:00 and I am still in my pajamas, but how can I resist?

God Clock

A couple of weeks ago I was trying to figure out how I was going to find any quiet time around this house. It seemed like there was never an opportunity for me to have any time to think, read or pray. I prayed that God would help me find some time to spend alone with him.

God answered my prayer. I have never been a morning person. I really enjoy staying up late and I really enjoy sleep. Sleep has been a struggle in our house since we moved to Mobridge because the day we moved here, our baby decided sleep was overrated. 

Usually I wake up at 7:00 am to get the girls out of bed and ready for school. If I was ever up any earlier than that, it was because my youngest decided it was time to get up. I set my alarm to go off and then I am off and running for the day fulfilling all of my roles as wife and mother, leaving little time for myself.

Last week, I started waking up before my alarm went off. The first day this happened, I was a little annoyed and I tried to get back to bed. The second day in a row it happened, I got out of bed and had my quiet time. The third day in a row it happened I said, "Okay God, I get it, you are answering my prayer, I will get out of bed."

So when I prayed I was thinking that God would reveal to me some time during the day to have this quiet time. I guess that wasn't what God had in mind. So now I do not need my alarm clock, I have my very own God Clock. 

The sun is shining when I wake up, I look outside and see the birds on my bird feeder and I can hear them singing. I can't wait until the weather gets a little bit nicer so that I can sit on my front porch and let God's light shine on me and I can praise Him for another beautiful day.

"In the morning, O LORD, you hear my voice; in the morning I lay my requests before you and wait in expectation." Psalm 5:3

Mother's Day Cause

As most of you reading this blog know, in January I had a breast biopsy. The test results came back negative. I am still praising God for these results. Breast Cancer is a cause that I hold very close to my heart because even though the test was negative, it brought a huge awareness of the disease to me.



I watched a little video yesterday that brought me to tears. A guy I went to high school with is trying to raise $30,000 for cancer research. He and his wife recently welcomed a baby girl into their family. This will be his wife's first Mother's Day. His wife's mother died the day after Mother's Day, a little over a year after her daughter was born.



Please watch this video and if you can, donate to a very worthy cause.



~Amy



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