Saturday, July 25, 2009

God vs the Computer

It is a beautiful Saturday morning. The sky is clear, the wind is still and the sun is shining. I sit on my front porch with my Bible on one side and my coffee on the other. I am breathing in the beauty of God's creation.

My morning did not start out this peaceful. I quietly got out of bed at 7:20am and tiptoed into the living room. I sat down at the computer and turned it on, (my first mistake of the morning). Then I heard it, thump, thump, thump, coming from the stairs. "You have got to be kidding me," was the first thing that ran through my head. It was only 7:30am (on a Saturday) and my little one was already awake.

I put her on the couch, filled her sippy cup with chocolate milk and turned the TV on to Dora the Explorer. I got her all settled in for a few Saturday morning cartoons and I turned back to the computer, (my second mistake of the morning). About 15 minutes later, she was done with cartoons and she wanted to play. I was so frustrated. I did not want to play a game at 8:00am."Couldn't she tell that I was busy?!"

She got just as frustrated with me and decided it was time to wake up daddy. She came back out a few minutes later and said, "Daddy and I are having eggs, you can have some if you start being nice." Ouch! Obviously my husband had heard me telling her, "no I am not going to play a game with you."

So I started my day over. I put away the computer. I made a strong pot of coffee, (I should have made it when I woke up, but I was trying to be quiet, so I wouldn't wake anyone up???) and I picked up my Bible.

I turned to the book of Galatians and I went straight to the Fruit of the Spirit.

But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control. Galatians 5:22-23

Well, I pretty much failed every part of this scripture and it was only 8:30am. I decided to turn back to Galatians 1 and I began to read. I got to Galatians 1:10 and I lingered there for awhile.

Am I now trying to win the approval of men, or of God? Or am I trying to please men? If I were still trying to please men, I would not be a servant of Christ.

My mind went immediately to this blog.

I began writing to share my faith journey. I wanted all of my writing to bring Glory to God. I wanted to share God's Word with anyone reading my blog. Yet, this morning I turned on the computer before I opened my Bible. . .

I decided I needed to keep reading. I stopped again at Galatians Chapter 2, verse 2 ". . .I wanted to be sure I was not running and had not been running my race in vain."

I continued to read the entire book of Galatians. I need to go back and read it all again. There is a lot more I want to share with you on another day.

I leave you with this promise I made to myself and to God. When I wake up I will reach for Him first and share my reflections with all of you later.

Right now I need to go inside and have my eggs. I guess my husband and daughter decided I started to be nice.

God's blessings to you on this beautiful Saturday morning. May the Son shine brightly upon your day and may you see Him in all you do.


Daveda said...

thanks so much for sharing. We all have moments like this...

I am so glad that God in His love and grace always gives us the chance to "start over". Whether it be our morning, day, week, or life. His gift of righteousness never goes away, even when we need to start over.

Hope you enjoyed your eggs, and the rest of your day. God Bless!

Collette@Jesuslovesmums said...

Hi Amy!
Yes we do have to be so so mindful of why we do our blogs. Mine started out the same as yours and has changed slightly. It is always useful to examine our motives but if we are prayerful about everything and make God's word a priority, then everything else should follow.
I too have been guilty of putting the PC on first b4 reading my Bible, but I quite often read my verse of the day online! The internet is a powerful tool for God's kingdom and we can use it wisely. Don't beat yourself up too much about this as it is all about balance!
Keep going with your blog as it really encourages others.
Love Collette xxx

Sandy said...

Oh, Amy, you have made me cry! Thank you so much for sharing.
I have been working hard lately on resisiting the urge to go to the computer first "to see what other bloggers might be sharing from the Bible," before reading my Bible first.
Your blog is serving a wonderful purpose. . .but your time with the Lord, then your husband and family come first!
Thank you, again!

Beth@Not a Bow in Sight said...

Such a great reminder for me lately. The summer months are hard like that :)

Thanks for posting that!

Prairie Chick said...

When I wake up I will reach for Him first and share my reflections with all of you later.

Amen! I'm holding you to that, girlfriend!