Thursday, July 9, 2009

Hello God, It's me Amy

Last night as we were going to sleep my husband said something to me that I thought about all night. (It was storming so we had two kids up numerous times, I didn't get much sleep).

He said, "You are losing your summer."

Why did this bother me so much? Well, it is the middle of July and my kids go back to school the middle of August. I had all of these wonderful plans for activities we were going to do and then life happens. I was mad at the world last night. I have good intentions, but I don't stick to my plan and it seems everything falls apart.

This morning I tried to refocus on scripture and I am asking God to help me take back my family.

I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world. John 16:33

In society it is way too easy to let the world dictate how you raise your family. The busyness of life is normal now for most families and I hate it. I am craving time away with my family to realize that we enjoy each other's company. That our family is important.

I am trying not to over-schedule my kids. I want them to be kids. What I forget to remember is they are kids and they shouldn't get to dictate the day, either.

So today, I am asking God for a do-over. I have one month left to refocus our summer and spend some quality time together as a family. This fall my baby starts preschool so I know time goes by way too fast.

Last night I thought to myself, why do I feel guilty that I just want to focus on being a mom. It is way too easy for me to say "Yes" to everything. Maybe if I post this I will stick to it. I have decided that this next school year I am not adding anything to my list of responsibilities. I am even taking some responsibilities off of the list. I am going to be the mom God intends for me to be.


BlogBaby said...

That's terrific! I have no doubt that our Lord will bless your efforts and knit your family together even more tightly. Don't let the time (or lack there of) frighten your mind, if you had only 1 day left in this world, wouldn't you make the same choice you are making now? I think we all would.



Chele said...

Oh my goodness, you just wrote about me! I am feeling the same things right now. Thank you for sharing!! :)

Jennifer said...

Isn't it great that we can have do-overs? ... His mercies are new every morning.

God bless you as you begin again ...

Prairie Chick said...

What a heartfelt, vulnerable, raw and beautiful post. The verse that came to mind after reading was "Delight yourself also in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart." Delight yourselves together, in Him, EACH moment (that means even in the mundane chores and moments!) and I believe you will discover that the desires of your heart as expressed here will be fulfilled. You have a sweet heart, I'm glad to have stumbled into this nook of yours.

Kee said...

I love and indentify with this post so much. My first born starts kindergarten Aug. 5. And the summer has gotten away from me too.
I'm not sure where the last 5 years went. Boy they grow up fast.

Irritable Mother said...

I read the title of this post and started thinking about Judy Blume. Do you remember "Are You there, God? It's me Margaret"?
I like your story better! *grin*

Good for you for seeking time with your family to enjoy one another. I trust that God will bless your efforts.